except I'm not there....Ryan's finishing the job today by himself and tomorrow with the "moving ministry" from church! We are so thankful! After the move in Dec. Ryan kept saying he was going to hire movers when we could afford it...well you guessed it we can't afford it!! So the Lord sent us to an amazing church....(exceeding our hopes for a church) and then threw in a moving ministry to ice the cake! Ahhh...(sigh) He IS so good. :) I am at Mom and Dad's (Ryan's mom and dad's) right now typing this and am so tired...can barely move....I guess my fingers can move though :) That's a good thing. I had the sweetest session today...our friends Lacey and Garth...they had little Isaiah two weeks ago...amazing. I almost started to cry when I was talking with Garth about the moment IT really struck me (I was holding Caleb at days old and rocking him before placing him in his crib) how much I loved this little baby...infinitely it seemed...so much and I barely knew the little guy really...he just came to us...born into our family. Didn't do anything particularly special to win my love - he just was. At that moment I though about God and His love for me, for you, for His children...that He loved us so much that He gave His only son...(I was looking at sweet sweet Caleb here and watching him just breath contently..his little chest rise and fall..rise and fall...) to die for our sins....(and then I thought of precious little Caleb growing up to die for other people and thought NO WAY!!).....and thought WOW God loves us SO MUCH to do that...I could NEVER do that with this sweet innocent baby. I mean, I knew all that...and it did "hit me" when God opened the eyes of my heart to this truth...when I asked Jesus to be my Savior and Lord....but it REALLY hit me when I thought of the love I already had for my own son at um...(when the pg test said positive!! but even more so the moment we saw the first sonogram...and even more than that when he was only seconds old.. and even more still every day...)...so now I am rambling. The point to this post was that it was amazing to rethink, refeel, and relive that feeling of humility, awe, amazement, love, and reference for God, our Heavenly Father....when I looked at sweet Isaiah today and thought of my own "moment" seeing what God did for me through a mother's eyes....wow.
On another note, I will write more on Sunday if our computer is intact and post some cute pics of Caleb sitting in Grandma's truck (she came yesterday on Thurs. to bring our bikes etc. and take back Caleb's bedroom furniture b/c the boys will be sharing a room!) WAITING for TWENTY minutes with his Bearbears and Horsey (named Chloe) all buckled up (at his request) for Grandma to take him to Grandpa Gene's and Grandma Kay's house to sleepover. I don't think he was excited or anything. Pics to come on Sunday!!! By the way did I mention I have THE BEST mother-in-law and family!?!?!?! Praise God for them I love them so!! Until then....:)
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